Ever wonder why life gets so complicated sometimes? ever since my mom died this past March I have been walking around carrying this whole in my heart. Wondering why she just didn't take better care of herself and why she didn't care enough to put her health before her work and now she is gone. I'm trying not to follow in her footsteps and started taking action. I have 3 kids in this world who need me and I am not ready to leave them. Why do the doctors make things so crazy? I know what is wrong so let's try to get to the bottom of things. I've had this condition since I was 16 and it is only getting worse as I get older. I had the opportunity to have it corrected but my mom cancelled the surgery for her own selfish reason. now she is gone and yet I still suffer. i turn to music to get me through the hard times and also the pain. I find comfort in it and sometimes I find myself. Godsmack's music has brought me out of dark places, when I thought there was no light in sight. I am so thankful for that. I never under estimate the power it has and I know it will get me through this as well. Music does help and I am so glad to have it in my life.