I definitely need serenity!!!
I need serenity in a place where I cant hide, where do we go when we just don't know, and how do we relight the flame when it's cold, why do we dream when our thoughts mean nothing, and when will we learn to control. I NEED SERENITY!!!...... Frustrated and no where to go!
To be or not to be that is the question? To do or not to do? What to do? My imagination is the limit and right now I seem to have no limits except for physicality. So I make limits, hold back until I can have a creative outlet. :( I need that outlet, I seem lost without it. I'm not used to having a restriction on my creative outlets, or thinking for that matter. I feel I must confine and contain my imagination until I am about to burst! The artist in me wants to move with the Earth again, feel with the spirit and energy that surrounds me, and be myself. Passion holds the soul! I want to be energetic, charismatic, and fun. I want to dig deep and be free! I want to be bad even when I am good, and try to be good even when I want to be bad. And even though my soul is very good, I am very good at being bad. See me reflected in my brush, in my canvas, in my words. This is my small bit of outlet today, my tiny bit of work, but even though you may not cast eyes upon me, to see my work is to see me. ......................... But bad is fun! But what is the point in being a little bad when I can't get the whole cake and be really bad?! And why can't it just be right! Only having a tiny piece of that outlet takes the fun out of being bad, especially when you know you can't get away with it ;} So since when do I let myself be confined? I've already broken some of the rules and would break the rest if no one would care, or I knew I could come clean with no repercussions. But it is good to break the rules sometimes, come up with something different, create something new,.. ENJOY something new ...... PLEASURE, FREEDOM, THE ART OF ME, and WHAT I WANT! But for now I stand Alone. -by Myself @